This is what I will be doing, come Monday December 8, 2008, for 8 hours a day, 40 hours a week. This is like telling a man in prison, that if he turns his bed on it's side, he can use it to do pull ups, so don't worry about not being able to go for a run. Though come to think of it, even prisons have gyms. On Monday I will become an industrialized worker, who performs only 1 task in a system of tasks, rather than being a holistic contributor to all aspects of the goals of my Agency. I watched a movie last night whose main character was from Greenland, she had grown up in the vast expanses of snow and landscape--her idea of Hell was to be enclosed. I thought about quitting the job I have not yet started. I decided to hold out and see how it actually feels. Last night I also met someone who has a similar 40-hours-a-week-in-front-of-the-computer job. She said that the first week, her eyes were constantly bloodshot, and every hour her body felt so restless. Now, her eyes have adju...
I finished reading Native Son, by Richard Wright, today. Although the ideas and people I lived in through his words for the past two days are still near enough for my thoughts to turn to and explore further, it makes me sad because now that I have read his three major works, I don't know where to turn to satiate this desire to read. Anyways, rather than go into how much Richard Wright was a fighter, seeker, artist, genius who kept it real and most of all was constantly, brutally honest in his explorations, and uncannily perceptive in his observations of MAN (that large M Man that includes ALL.OF.HUMANITIES Universal Emotions, Desires, Motives, Yearnings) ... (I just highly highly highly recommend reading his works, esp Black Boy & The Outsider) I just wanted to share a line from Native Son that most struck me: "Remember that men can starve from a lack of self-realization as much as they can from a lack of bread!" I kept pairing that line in my head with this line from...
i discovered in the slowly developing rebirth of the past few weeks that it is time now to "be nice to everyone". its scary to be nice to everyone. i used to open myself to people who i came across that also seemed open. in the past two years i learned that i didn't want to open myself to everyone who came knocking at my door and that to do so was 1.not necessary 2. wouldn't make me a "bad" person. in the past two years i have learned the beauty of the sacred and the sacredness of choosing between good and bad. if it was one thing i learned in anthropology from my professor Marisol dela Cadena, it was that "good" and "bad" are not analytical terms. they dont say anything. they are too polarizing and too assumptive. growing up as a Baha'i, i was always taught to look for the good in everything and always be kind. yet in the past 2 years i have learned that there is good and there is better (if not good and bad), and there are people wh...
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